February 11, 2012 § 2 Comments
I lie in this bed, sick again. I look at my life and wonder if I made wrong choice somewhere. So many people tell me that I did, but I can’t get myself to believe them. That must mean I’m doing it right, no?
I know I should be upset about ex, being alone and somewhat friendless, pressures of work and studies, being broke all the time. But I don’t feel upset. Is there something wrong with me? I saw valentine episode of grey’s anatomy and all I feel is sappy happy. I still believe everything happens for a reason and while I have my down days, I cannot be pessimist all the time. Oh sure, I curse life every now and then (ok more than now and then). But I know I’ll find my rainbow at the end. Whether it’s a white picket fenced house or a shack at some beach, it’ll happen in its own time.
I guess it’s hard to accept that people can be content even things seem tough. And it’s not so tough anyway, unless you count unable to buy books at every whim or call your friend at 1 in night because you want to have ice-cream.
So maybe it’s the medication or maybe it’s my grown up genes or just this burning temperature, I don’t feel sad. I might in another 2 days, but not today.
Ps: ‘dream on’ is playing on my laptop right now.. Coincidence?
PPS: I want to call a certain ex and tell him he was wrong, my decision to go for psych wasn’t wrong. So he can fuck off. Being too mean??
October 15, 2008 § 1 Comment
For last few weeks I’ve been thinking about relationships, the right decisions, the wrong ones.. If everything is good with someone, just one or two things missing, Should you compromise and try to work at that relationship? How do you know which things can be sacrificed and which cannot be?
I see so many couples around who complain about lack of interest, passion, understanding etc in their partners. But they choose to stay in those relationships because everything else is fine. Because it’s really not other person’s fault if you don’t agree with them. I get that.
But then again, aren’t we just limiting ourselves? Isn’t this really the fear of venturing in unknown again? Fear of losing what you have and never find anything better?
Seriously where do you draw the line? When do you say I’m happy in this relationship and I’ll just compromise with issues?
I thought Maybe I wasn’t getting it. I almost made decisions to compromise. But then I just realized I don’t want my future to be a compromise. It’s not fair to me or to the other person either. I know whole taking decision hurt few people but I think better late than never.
This says it all..
“There’s not an ounce of excitement, not a whisper of a
thrill. This relationship has all the passion of a pair of titmice. I
want you to get swept away out there. I want you to levitate. I want
you to sing with rapture and dance like a dervish…Be deliriously
happy. Or at least leave yourself open to be….I know it’s a cornball
thing, but love is passion, obsession, someone you can’t live without.
I say fall head over heels. Find someone you can love like crazy and
who’ll love you the same way back. And how do you find him? Well,
forget your head and listen to your heart. I’m not hearing any heart.
And I’m not hearing any heart. ‘Cause the truth is, honey, there’s no
sense living your life without this. To make the journey and not fall
deeply in love — well, you haven’t lived a life at all. But you have
to try. Because if you haven’t tried, you haven’t lived…Stay open.
Who knows? Lightning could strike.”
~Meet Joe Black
May 9, 2008 § Leave a comment
Problem is not that people don’t love, problem is they don’t love enough to stand up for that love. Be it standing up to a guy in bar to stop harassing your girl, Be it telling an obnoxious but good friend to stop criticizing your guy, Be it standing up to your family for your love, Be it taking a life-changing hard decision and Most importantly Standing up to your loved one for that love.
If you can do so.. There’s nothing to stop that Happy Ending to come your way.
“Once you make a decision, the universe conspires to make it happen.”
Ralph Waldo Emerson